mamat ate my cookies

2008-06-20T12:04:00.000-07:00

movedddddddd to, LJ

2008-06-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

auntie brought cousin eugene's baby over today! i was playing with her before going out to meet my honey cakes. she's sooooo adorable! & im so in love with her that i cant stop kissing her. okay, i sound like some irritating freak.
after the outing, asked mommy & bro for their accompany to eugene's house, to see his baby. & i gave her a few kisses again before i got home. (:

went to haji lane then to town to meet faisal. & tday was awesomeeeeeeeee! thanks honey cakes! i love nurdiyana, dayana.

although we just met, but im missing you ladies alrdy. y'all never fail to plaster that smile on my face. & i hope we get to meet again soon baby girls.

pictures :

& im elated to receive m's messages today. i miss her sooooo much! please come back soon, im waiting for monday, sisterrrrrrrrrrrr! take care of yourself & eat more before dental appointment on sunday. cos i know it'll hurt.

2008-06-13T06:09:00.000-07:00

i miss my dear girls (!!!) & S.

i dont feel good. & im down with flu again.

s : lemme teach you how to cure .

s : first .

s : pour a cup of HOT water .

s : hot from the flask .

s : then you take the 'Fong Yew'

s : the one that rub on tummy one ..?

s : that small bottle with a blackcap .

s : and drip afew inside the cup .

s : then ..

s : take the cup .

s : and smell it .

c : HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

c : dont want.

s : eh iam serious .

2008-06-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

unknown : hi. where are you?
c : who're you?
unknown : xiao boi.
c : what xiao boi?!
unknown : xiao boi. 20. owns a handphone shop. drives a car too.

dint bother to reply

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i was with m at coffee bean. then i received a message.

unknown : hi my name is xiao sky. i changed my number. anything just sms or call me. btw, my current name is xiao boi changed to xiao sky.

c : (laugh out loud)
m : why.
c : (shows message)
m : (laugh out louder!)

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unknown : hello sweetie, good morning. where are you?
c : who're you?
unknown : lao shu.

dint bother to reply.

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unknown : hi, good afternoon. tis my new num. rmb to save it. my old num never use le. thks. take care.
c : who're you?
unknown : xiao dave.
c : wtf.

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unknown : hi, sweetie, good evening. the rest of my num never use including my this currently num. save my tis two num which im using. remember to save it. thanks. take care. have a nice day.

wtf. annoying pest!!! are you trying to tell me that whenever you changed your number, you'll change your name as well? irritating shitzz! "xiao" here & there. what the hell? so not cool.

2008-06-07T11:11:00.000-07:00

7th June :

6th June :

2008-06-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

congratulations carmen. you had the most embarrassing & the worst fall ever last night while blading.

i laughed right after my bad fall, although its not funny.

now say hello to my injuries.

this is not all, i have more cuts on my elbows, hips, & thigh.

i almost faint each time i finish bathing. & i have difficulties in walking! damn it!

brother : sis, please dont walk like a cripple.

c : i know, but i have no choice.

brother : yeah, i can see that. poor thing (shakes head)

c : (wide smile)

brother : still can smile, crazy.

2008-06-01T07:11:00.000-07:00

if only i could freeze that moment of happiness forever...

2008-05-31T01:40:00.001-07:00

i love you th most, & im sorry i made you angry for th 9283726654836th times. (slaps myself)
i knw im just th worst kind.

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time check : 0330am

its freaking late now, i cant sleep. & im so freaking awake. not even the bay of the sheep, can make me go to sleep. i think im used t sleepin late right now.
& jerome made me hardcore laughing from th start till now! hahahahahahahahahahaahhaaaha. & aloysius & i are craving for so many food right now!! i know its late but who cares. {: better not list it all out. or we'll go nuts! hahahahahaha {:

goodnight, dinosaurs! (:

2008-05-30T00:19:00.001-07:00

headaches!! i feel so tired right now. i actually slept at 6am in th morning & woke up at 7am t prepare for school. lesson was kinda fun tday, laughed alot. & yeah, results of smiling & laughing too much, my ulcer hurt me like scratching th feelings of severely.
its hurting me like every second! & thats not very nice }:

so, fast forward. after lesson, met anna dear & she accompanied me t th clinic. heh. thanks baby!
{:

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L : hey, where are you?
C : central. i went t th clinic.
L : t see th doctor?
C : ya. my toe haven recover.
L : go hospital for what? amputate your toe?
C : ya. how?
L : hahaha. after you amputate. you'll be left with 9 toes (: unique sia.
C : busted. hahaha! (:

2008-05-28T10:29:00.000-07:00

i miss both my honey cakes already! although we just met earlier on.
thanks for tday, & not forgetting every other days. i love times like this. & i love when my heart smiles, but th best of all, it smiles because of th both of you. (kiss forehead) (:

dad didnt bring fishy back. ):
& my ulcer hurts!!! ): whenever i open my mouth, whenever i talk, whenever i smile, whenever i laugh! ok. especially when i eat my koko krunch!!! it actually hurts every second!!! damn it. ):

& im happy that i get t see ZANN BABY tday!!! i hope your injury (meatball) will recover in no time. take care alright. we'll meet up real soon!!! love you much! (hug you tight)

2008-05-25T09:32:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD!!! I SWEAR IM SO FUCKIN PISS WITH MY BROTHER THAT I FEEL LIKE BANGING THE WALL!!! BUT!! I'LL BE THE HAPPIEST SISTER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD IN A FEW HOURS TIME!!! HE'LL BE GOING TO SCHOOL FOR CAMP!!!!!!! YAYYYYY(?)

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time check : 0114hours.

met sister m & lucas earlier on & caught ayat ayat cinta. {:

& now m is sleeping soundly (: i miss hogging on the phone with you although we just did last night for 5 LONG hours! & online shopping, m!!! i just found new websites! im sure you'll be excited when you see this!! hahahahahah. macam faham.

& oh yaa! tons of luck for your paper! im sure you can do it! same to L! & others that'll be taking the paper later on. hahahahahaha. {:

2008-05-23T10:40:00.000-07:00

time check : 0137 hours.

today was awesome! caught indiana JONES with lovely m! & i had my FAVOURITE HIGHLY PLEASING TO THE SENSES! - NACHOS! hahahahahahhahahahahaa. i ate like some irritating glutton! laughed like some crazy hyena! damn annoying, but what m said was true! the guy beside me was way annoying than i do. m knows why! {: hehehehehe.

a big fat thank you for today, sister! (hugs you tightly) (:

2008-05-22T23:39:00.001-07:00

fuck 22nd may!

2008-05-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

believe me when i say that i want to be there for you, to treasure you in the morning & in the noon tide, to be next to you, to love you now & for the rest of my living years, to comfort you, to dry your tears & calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles & show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land.

i love you sister dear (:

2008-05-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

you made me smile. like as if my smile could cover up my whole entire face.

2008-05-19T02:40:00.000-07:00

I MISS M THE MOST! I MISS YOU SOOOOOO DAMN MUCH }:
COME BACK SOON! IM WAITING FOR YOUR CALL/TEXT! ♥

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im sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me. but the more i think, the less i believe it & the more i want you here with me.

2008-05-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

yesterday's pictures after jogging. {:

sister dear . anna baby

shy kepe? :D

(♥) 5 beauty queens . an ugly WILD BOAR
ugly wild boar = in blue
in blue = carmen :D

you should know why i censored my face . its too fugly, damn it :D

dee baby!

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i recall when you said that you would never leave me. i remember that you said that you'd be here forever.

then you left...

its been so long now, i have forgotten how to smile.

2008-05-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

you see, i feel sad when you're sad. i feel glad when you're glad. you came along just like a song & brightened up my EVERYDAY! & you know, i can't smile without you. I LOVE YOU M DEAR! ♥

2008-05-15T08:06:00.000-07:00

i fucking hate my braces, except the fact that the rubbers are in GREEN {:
it hurt balls, hurt more than a million-zillion choppers slashing your face. eh violent. BUT i cant sleep well at night, i woke up an umpteenth time last night.

i want to pluck them metals out of my precious tooth. IF ONLY I CAN. it hurt so much right now that i feel like killing myself. the pain isnt subsiding AT ALL. god damn it.

2008-05-14T00:04:00.001-07:00

i cant really describe the feelings i have in me now. they are mixed up. just atoms during a reaction. just running around the place like nobody's business. & its an exothermic one i swear. cos i might just explode one day if i cannot take it.
haha? im using such scientific terms. where is my catalyst? i need them to speed up my ability to sort things out.

i have so much to say. my vocab is limited. i can't put it in nice wonderful words which able to 100% explain how i feel at this very moment.
all i need now.. time. more time.
24 hours a day aint enough for me.

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maybe i'll just dream of you tonight. & if into my dream you come & touch me once again. i'll just keep on dreaming till my heartaches end.

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♥ martha baby , lucas :D
yesterday was awesome, iron man was DAMN awesome! hohoho. i guess the cathay, was TOO, awesome ya sister? {: bumping into candyman cameron was also, awesome. & im missing you, m! i cant wait to see you but NOT doctor jimmy later on. (hugs you tightly) :D

2008-05-12T09:34:00.001-07:00

time check: 2337hours.

helo sunshine, any idea how much im missing you right now? any idea how happy i was when i know im meeting you WHILE jogging with lucas earlier on. {: you know, i cant meet you because fishball daddy DONT ALLOW. but you know, there's still tomorrow & i was dying to meet you & i cant wait to see you tomorrow! ;D & YOU KNOW, i love you so damn much!

2008-05-12T08:36:00.000-07:00

110508; sunday:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! I LOVE YOU MUMMY! :D

HIGHLY PLEASING TO THE SENSES!

wild boars, i only feel like uploading one out of aplenty photos from desmond's chalet. [:

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its been EXACTLY a month. imy. k. thxbye.

2008-05-09T01:46:00.000-07:00

helo fat kids! im at martha baby's house. hohohoho!

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL! ;D

2008-04-16T08:06:00.000-07:00

should i smile because you're my friend, or cry because thats all we'll ever be. a million words would not bring you back, i know because i've tried. neither would a million tears, i know because i've cried. forget the times you walked by, forget the times you've made me cry, forget the times you held my hand, forget the sweet things if i can, i can no longer pretend, i have to remember now that you're just a friend. when i look at you my heart skips a beat but later that beat could mean a lifetime of tears wasted on something i knew i could never have. how can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them it makes you want them even more? its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does. even when i pour my heart to you. im not sure it shows, that i love you more than you'll ever know. i know in reality we cant be together, so i just close my eyes & you're right here with me. in my dreams you're mine forever.
i was reborn when you first kissed me. part of me died when you left me. but now i still live, waiting for the day you return to me.

2008-04-15T01:42:00.001-07:00

to you know who you are. get this right.

im sure you dont even know why we even started all these quarrels. cos you dont understand the words that are coming out of my mouth at first, now still. & you dont even want to listen. so dont start this again. you started it again & asked me not to find fault. walking pass you, you call this finding fault? you must be out of your mind. so, what's with, "your chinese friend" , "eee" , those mean words & those not needed stares like as though i owe you 3k. dont put words into either mine or daphane's mouth. & dont push all the blames to another & act as though you're innocent. whatever you said, wont affect me, fyi. definitly wont. & please, dont go around bootlicking annaj(s). you're just trying to add on to my misery, which doesnt, at all, bothers me. kthxbye.

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martha dear : i'll steal a million pink daisies to make you smile ; i'll run that 100km just to see you smile ; i'll sing that lullaby just to see you smile ; i'll paint your room green just to see you smile ; i'll paint beautiful memories just to see you smile ; i'll create wonderful times just to see you smile ♥

stein yan : god made you to be cheerful. thats why you wake up everyday with that smile on your face. dont let god down. ; do you know, when i saw you crying at the BBQ. i just felt like helping you wipe away your tears for you. i just really felt pity for you. but there's always nothing wrong if you want to cry. cry all you want. but make sure that there's someone beside you for you to have a shoulder to cry on. ; & your heart. isnt designed to heal within 2 days. so, give it time to rest & heal.

kelvin : cheer up, dont look out of the window. you'll feel like jumping down.

leticia : you just gave her the idea, idiot.

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i cant stop loving you. & i wont start believing that this is the end, there must be another way. cos i couldn't handle the thought of you going away. oh sorry's not good enough, why are we breaking up.

2008-04-12T23:27:00.000-07:00

(♥)
anna . stein
kelvin .

anna . dee

anna .

mervin . weien . anna . dee

m's {:

m . syf

leticia . anna . weien

leo .

im actually smiling

w specs .

chia p.c

peter low .

m .

m . {:

stein yan fernando .

dee .

barbeque .

2008-04-08T21:21:00.000-07:00

happy birthday, jimmy.
the candle thing were ugly, but you love it.

thanks, sister m.
today is the worse. i swear. but thanks, for your presence & everything, even though you're damn tired, you still stay with me & make sure im okay. to talk to me, hug me & tell me everything is gonna be alright, although you know is not. i love you. now & forever.

& dear l,
cheer up.

oh bffl, mamat.
thanks for helping me. only you know what i mean. & i know you're just a phone call away.

baby.
i'd rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else. ily forever & ever & ever, till my dying day, i dont care.

2008-04-02T04:17:00.000-07:00

i want green bag pack.
i want green rubbers for my blings tomorrow, doctor jimmy.

2008-04-01T08:57:00.000-07:00

today = disaster.

2008-03-29T04:35:00.000-07:00

yay, im sad. you wont wanna know why.

& dinie, i love you
bye.

2008-03-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

overslept. my eye lids weigh a ton.
woke up at 3plus & missed the motivational programme today. yesterday attended only half of the day. & today was the last day of the programme yet i did not attend it. regret much!

stein yan fernando : we took a group photo and stuff.
c : WLAO. I WANTTTTTTTTTTT.
stein yan fernando : including david and Jeff. ;D
c : NOT FAIR )))):
stein yan fernando : haha.
stein yan fernando : who ask you not to come? xD
c : ehhhhhhhhhhhh. ask him come back.
c : HAHAHA
stein yan fernando : afew people got his MSN i think.
stein yan fernando : ;D
c : WAH
c : NOT FAIRRRRRRRRRR
c : AHAHAHAHHAHAAH
stein yan fernando : haha.
stein yan fernando : pontang summore lar. :x
stein yan fernando : today only 20+ people come sia. Lols.

im gonna miss adrian-looked-alike's jokes. :D

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close your eyes & imagine in the darkness you see now. suddenly you see a door with white light. then there is one guy standing there & he looks familiar. he is your dad. then he starts speaking to you, he says : *boy/girl, i have not been a very good father & i have tried my best to my full ability to be a good father. but i was not taught how to be a good father. i am sorry that i have not been there for you. & i am sorry for whatever i've done that has made you angry.
now imagine that you holding your father's hands, then hug him. then you realise he slowly fades away & disappear. now the door slams shut. then at the corner of your eye, you see another door. there is one young pretty lady standing behind it, she also looks familiar. she is your mother. she also says the same thing to you.
she apologises for not understanding you enough. also remember that this two pple are the ones who created you, fed you, watch you grow up. & yet now you scold them.
when you were in kindergarden, they were the two who bought you new bags & stuff. in primary schl, they were also the ones who bought you new shoes & stuff. but instead of thanking thhem, you complain that the stuff not nice. in primary schl, when you forgot to take something important to schl, your mother rushes to schl to give you but instead of saying thanks, you ask her to hurry home, afraid that your friends see her. in secondary schl, all you did was just complain that they nag at you, complain about they not understanding you. in secondary schl, all you did was just want three things from your father : sign report cards, sign documents & ask for more pocket money. they give up all the things they want just for you & yet this is how all of you treat them.

this is partly what melvin said. & i find it all so true.
i love mommy & daddy. & i want the best for them :D

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i always hate it when i dont go to school, sense of guilt fills me. i hate it when i dont know what's going on in schl. i hate it when im in my own bloody comfort zone for too long. i hate it when i play too much. i hate it when im outside while my schoolmates are facing a stack of notes.

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sister dear, glad that you're cheered now. [:
dont think too much, & im always here for you. i love you much!

2008-03-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

today was awesome.
motivational programme turned out great, surprisingly. i hope melvin talks all the way, for the whole 12 hours tomorrow. [: cos whenever he starts to speak, you'll find me hardcore laughing. but the moment kok/jeff took over. i was strumming to stay awake.

i've got this enormously humongous ULCER thats bigger than my face.

2008-03-22T21:39:00.000-07:00

can't you see you're my one & only. without you, my days just would not be complete. so whenever, baby, you need me. call on me, & i'll be there in a heartbeat. & have i ever told you how good it feels to hold you. it isn't easy to explain.

i love you, honeybunch.

2008-03-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

flu. acute sorrow pain in my throat.

i feel as if lime juice is on my eyes. tired yet i do not, at all, feel like sleeping. maybe i just need to stay awake for an hour or so, & when my lids feel as though they weigh a ton, i'll just concuse on my bed. & before i know it, i'll blink my eye to a brand new day.

be it weekends or weekdays, everyday seems to be the same. it does not make any difference. at least, for now. the only difference that is i have someone special with me. he hold my hand ever so tightly. he makes sure everything is right for me. he makes sure i do not utter a single complain, cos he wants my world to be perfect.

every time i must say goodbye to you, i feel so down & sigh. every night all i do is think of you, you stole my heart away. thanks for this wonderful evening spent. i love you, baby [:

2008-03-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

(im smiling, & i look so annoying to a certain extend, if you notice.)

time check; 0122am.
this is the 101 time i sneezed.
im loquacious all the time, & my post seemed pretty wordy these days. [:

if i could be two places at one time, i'd be with you. tomorrow & today, beside you all the way.
couldnt wait to see your smiling face anymore, baby [:

& cheer up, my super sister super super duper sister! ♥

2008-03-16T08:20:00.000-07:00

HI READERS!
check it out : thespiderwickchronicles [:
THE SPIDERWICK CHRONICLES = TWO THUMBS UP! & Freddie Highmore is so amazing, i swear. seriously, i dont mind watching it over & over again :D

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sometimes i rlly hate myself for asking money from my dad. i think i should just shut up & stop spending so much (: & i hate to say this, but after the worst day i went through hell. somehow i still love my brothers(?) ok weird. & somehow im feeling rlly depress whenever i stop typing & take a quick glance at my dying daisies ]:

& schl's in tomorrow, IM SO EXCITED! (its pretty obvious that im actually lying ok :D)

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ily, d.
you sweat cos you run & run all day in my mind ♥

2008-03-15T14:03:00.000-07:00

HI MOFOS!
time check; 0501am.

im not hibernating anytime soon. cos y'all should know i love hogging on the phone with sister m till sunrise. but she reminded me tht today gonna be the last day yo, cos school's taking over. which i rlly hate it. [:

& my neck.. its still hurting me like nobody's business.
please dont laugh at me. :D

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ily mofo <3 says:
hahahahahaha , carmen , do you know that you are really a super sweet sister? like , you always think for me , care for me , love me , there for me , play with me , laugh with me , eat with me , sing with me , dance with me , do everything with me , im rly so glad to have you with me. thank you okay sister , i really love you (:

think for you, care for you, love you, there for you, play with you, laugh with you, eat with you, sing with you, dance with you, do everything with you, is my job.

2008-03-15T08:30:00.001-07:00

i love hibernating.
& i love d. [:

2008-03-14T12:29:00.000-07:00

something isnt right, today is the worst day i went through hell. i wish i could remove it from my mind. cos this is killing me so slowly.

im waiting for something to turn out right.
i'll keep holding on, but i knw im not that strong. (w/o you, by my side) cos i've got you, to make me feel stronger, d ♥

[edited]

the skies become kaleidoscopes.
im meeting super sister m in a few hours time. cant wait! & thanks for cheering me up lovely, & sorry to made you worried earlier on. same to ♥ D. mamat & samuel.

& sister, i love the way you cheer me up :
day 14 : em sunflowers are crying ,
just like you. so please cheer up , dear c .

but its day 15 : your sunflowers are not crying anymore, just like me. i think im cheered, dear m [: & to me, those lovely daisies from you are still as pretty as they were since day 1.

my neck hurt much, head too, & maybe a little bit of heartache. more than a zillion choppers slashing you. & you wont wanna know why. [:

kthxbye.

2008-03-12T01:17:00.001-07:00

hello you!
after 7548563857796037 mins & seconds, i finally finish half of this awful cup noodles of mine. & IM BLOATED {:

now, take a look at my super sister :D

I LOVE YOU, SISTER! I RLLY DO {:

& thanks for yesterday, sister m & mamat. :D

& not forgetting, d ; i love the presence of you. one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind. ♥

2008-03-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

if i only had a wish, i'd wish you next to me. cos im missing you like crazy. i need for you to hold me, down deep in my soul & never let it go. i'll never let you go cos i really love you so.
if you must know the truth, im nothing without you. now i know what people mean, when its too good to be true. if you only knew, what you really do. ain't never had no one that does it quite like you. i could spent half a lifetime trying to find someone like you. thats why im so glad i found you, baby. (:

2008-03-06T23:20:00.000-08:00

hot news.

mood : sad. depressed. disappointed. pissed. uneasy.

happy not in the list.

2008-03-05T07:25:00.001-08:00

♥ super sister : just to let you know, you've got me the loveliest daisies in the whole wide world! & i really love it! :D
& i've got the best surprise ever!
thanks for the awesome evening spent. & i keep thinking of the surprise that you gave me earlier. i really loved it. thanks a million, you made me the happiest living thing on earth :DDD

I LOVE YOU, SISTER! - with all my heart & soul.
& thanks for everything, my dear girl ♥

j : don't pretend that you don't know me, thats the worst thing you could do. [:

2008-03-04T06:32:00.000-08:00

to d :

within every word you speak,
within in every dream you see.
within every breathe you breath.
within every beat of your heart.
no matter how far i am, im always with you. ♥

2008-03-04T00:18:00.000-08:00

i would really love to eat those delicious cornflakes & cookies from martha, they're so tempting. but its so frustrating that im having this bad tooth ache every now & then after yesterday's dental appointment.
im so hungry! that i think i can eat 10 cows right now.

2008-03-02T09:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16, MY PRECIOUS ONE! ♥

you bring me joy, good love, good times, such happiness. & everything seems to be perfect when you're around. the sweet smile of yours, shined away all my darkest moment. the warm hug of yours, kept me away from the coldest night. you're so amazing. :D

& a sister like you is someone i turn to when my spirits need a lift, is someone i treasure for our sistership is a gift, is someone who fills my life with beauty, joy & grace.

if i can take away your pain, i will scream for you & i'll bleed for you. so you'll never feel this way. this post is dedicated to you, cheer up, sister (:

2008-02-26T00:49:00.001-08:00

once upon a time, something happened to me. it was the sweetest thing there ever could be. a fantasy, a dream come true.

- it was the day i met you.

dunia ini akan menjadi sunyi
jika tiada orang membuat mu senyum
peganglah aku, hingga matahari pupus
supaya ku tidak keseorangan diri
keranamu disisiku, aku tabah

TOODLES (:

2008-02-24T06:46:00.001-08:00

2008-02-22T10:19:00.000-08:00

HIGH FIVE, TIMES TWO, FLING THOSE FINGERS & SNAP!
now that i couldnt sleep, thanks to a well known sweetie loved by many, with the sweetest winning smile plastered on her pretty face. just so you know, when im with you, i dont worry, cos i know everythings gonna be alright. & cos i've got your back & you know you've got mine. if you want to fight, i'll stand right beside you, the day that you fall, i'll be right behind you. you're like the world greatest sister on earth & i swear i love you mannnnnnnnn! :D

those words really touched my heart, & you made me blush (with happiness). OHHH, ILY! ♥!

2008-02-20T08:09:00.000-08:00

190208; tuesday:

super sister, now & forever

hibernate till 2 plus, & loving it. (:

to M & N : helo lovelies! i love yesterday! although its only a short time spent together, i still enjoyed myself to the fullest, thanks for all those laughters & joy you ladies brought to me. i love you ladies, to the maximum, & with an uncountable amount of chops. ♥! & i cant wait for FRIDAY (:

200208; wednesday:

hi. im the shortest. [:

i love & at the same time hate today (:

i spent most of my time going to the toilet / looking into the mirror in class. - trying to get my barbell into my tongue hole. but failed! im so gonna pierce it again tomorrow, but i don't want swollen & pale tongue. i hate it man.

& moving on, we went to HONDA WORKSHOP after school, then headed to the stadium for heats. im dead t-i-r-e-d! which means, i would really love to hibernate at home instead of going to school tomorrow :D

& i love the lovely green silppers so much, fee. thanks a million zillion!

but im not wearing it soon, cos of my (very-fugly-toe) (:

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his loving keeps me strong & i know that nothings wrong. but i feel so alone tonight cos i miss my baby, i know that he's the one for me, & i know that he thinks the same about me. you'll never understand the way he makes me feel when he holds my hand i hope that god had this plan, that he was his angel, lost his wings for this world, to come down here & save me. he's my baby.

♥ D.

2008-02-18T07:08:00.000-08:00

(A) : i'll give my last breathe to defend you. i've got a baseball bat, a knife & bamboo pole, i'll sharpen it like an arrow, like a spear. ♥

thanks (A)

2008-02-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

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thanks sister M. (HUGS TIGHTLY) ♥

your corn flakes' superb mannnn, i mean lady :D

& im super duper happy to see you today, as you were trying to surprise me from behind, (but failed) & bammmm, I CAUGHT YA (:

& damn, your corn flakes' so tempting that my elder brother tried to steal em away from me when i happily placed em on the dining table, sat down & ogle at those lovely corn flakes. merepek, ogle at corn flakes. nothing better to do :D but i caught him, no worries. its all for me! glutton or whhhaaaaat, duh. forever number one. [:

you're as sweet as honey, only sweeter.
any idea how much i love you? only god knows.

I LOVE YOU - WITH A CHOP! :D

2008-02-16T12:02:00.001-08:00

140208; thursday:

fave. ♥

ignore the face, look only at the cookie. :D

i received something special from bff, its BONJELA, my ulcers for vday.

thank you, all ♥

150208; friday:

today is a bad day.

cos, my most lovable pumpkin hurt his ankle & that made me worried sick, man. rushed down,

knowing he wasnt alone, my heart lighten.

& girlfriends, i love you all, please don't quarrel (:

160208; saturday:

bad day, too. why?

my dad caught my damn piercing.
i hurt my damn toe, & you wouldn't wanna see it up on this post.

kthxbye.

2008-02-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

swollen tongue, with great amount of pus. yay?

2008-02-09T10:06:00.000-08:00

(A), thanks for coming yesterday. i appreciate every little thing you've done for me. :D

& rush hour, soon. tomorrow.

& hi, this is my favourite card. [:

censored says:
i'll buy 10 roses, 9 real and 1 fake and i will love you till the last 1 dies

& that's my favourite guy. bye. [:

2008-01-24T04:02:00.000-08:00

i should learn how to be contented with life. i tend to keep comparing with others who has got better things than me, who enjoy life better than me. i questioned myself, ' what about those that do not have as much luxury as i do? ' i was dumbfolded.
i should slap myself, i deserve it :D
why do i keep looking at the bad side of my life? i have so much wonderful ' assets ' which i should appreciate and count myself lucky. my ' assets ' include, my family, sisters, girlfriends, friends & people who are concern about me. i am really lucky to have my family with me. although sometimes parents tend to show their love by nagging non-stop. they meant well.
today i sms my mom, ' i love you '. & yes, i feel proud & happy to let her know how i feel. :D (chehhhh bak ;D)
but i do not have the courage to say in her face. & when she returned home today, i didnt dare to look at her when she talked to me. why? simply because i send her a sms which makes me feel embaressed. i know i shouldn't be feeling this way.. sad to say, somehow, we do. how many people actually kiss their parents goodbye whenever they leave for work or for schl. yes its mushy. but isn't what makes mommy and daddy happy although they do not say it out? i wish to hug my daddy and say thank you for everything. i appreciate things that he had done for us. but till today, I do not have the courage to do it.

2008-01-08T06:07:00.000-08:00

last night. mommy dear's birthday partttttayyyy.
p/s: tht's my dad's hand :D

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO MY DEAR GIRLS, (: [05JAN]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMMMY DEAR, (: [07JAN]

2007-12-25T00:44:00.000-08:00

MERRRRRRRRY MERRRRRY CHRISTMAS, FAT TURKEYSSSSSSSSSSSS! :D :D :D
IM DOWN WITH COUGH & FLU! ON CHRISTMAS DAY(?) (:

& as usual, this year, santa was my mom again :D thanks a million zillion for those lovely presents, my world greatest mother!

2007-12-23T08:56:00.000-08:00

two more days to christmas! & IM SO EXCITED (:

happiness is when Christmas Day is coming & you are so thrilled about what kind of presents you'll receive. its like when i was young & i woke up first thing in the morning during Christmas to see my present lying beside me on my bed. its the early days of my life where i believe santa send that pressent while i was asleep. it was only at a later stage where i realised my santa every year was my mom. :D